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Sunday, January 08, 2006

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 00:13:54 GMT

hello loves././.

how are all of yall? hopefully great...me on the other hand life could be so0o much better...you'd think hey there's gotta be one thing that you can think of that makes you happy even if everything else doesn't....and i'd have to say that would be ashley and kelsey ((together its one,ok?)) but any ways...everything else ((excuse me)) is shit...and i rarely cuss ((sometimes)) but that means its awful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

boys...school...family...cheerleading...life.....me...is awful// and right about now i wish i had gotten rid of something a llooooooong time ago!//

and so0o this week has been bad...but also there was one thing that moved me...and lol it was sex class...haha weird i know../././././. but even though it was just about sex and all that good stuff...it made me realize i want to change everything in my life to be better && and i am talking about everything....i most of all want to become more self confident in everything i do((which by the way is my new years revolution plus stuff about boys...)) and that'll have to be the h.a.r.d.e.s.t. thing ever for me....no joke!// so0o i've spent this whole weekend basically crying,,yes i am a cry baby//but i can't help i am emotional lol././.. and i decided that i am not crying over anything ANY MORE unless something tragic happens....and there i think i am done! and when you see me again lol i will be HAPPY! actually really happy not fake happy!//

i love you all soooooooooooooooooooooooo much!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 03:26:08 GMT

it's official...xanga is just old news./././.

i have a new love...myspace..baby!//

well nothing tooo big going on...life is that same...i hate effin school ((the work))

schedule got changed lovin' it!

that certain some1 and that certain problem with that person...i'm over it!

umm....me and mo get to sit out of 2 games...sucks//but o0o well i'm glad i'm not alone on this...//

well leave muchos of comments!!

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 21:43:27 GMT

ok... well so0o i probably shouldn't be talking about this on here....but what the heck?.......

well ok....have you just had this great big temptation to do something you really shouldn't? and no i am not talking about drugs or drinking or any of that bad stuff....i'm talking boys.....

well ok...to be honest ugh...i am just so0o confused! and i'm not suppose to be because i already have what i need...or at least what i "think" i need....

and last night i think i had the hardest time with it// but i sort of let go of what was confusing me...cuz i felt like it was the best thing because i don't want anything bad to come.... but even though i feel like it was the right thing...why is it bothering me so0o bad????????

and i know this must be SUPER confusing cuz yes, it is to me too. but i just lost one of my best friends............. and it really is sad! and i needed to get that off my mind...// and ummmmmmm....don't ask what it is really about cuz i won't tell ya! lol...j/k.........

well on brighter sides of life....i have a myspace...get excited!//yes it is grand!lol....well tonight is New Year's Eve and i think its probably going to stink for me...maybe..//just with my luck it will!////////

well guess who i love??

guess?

Kelsey Rae Mauck!// she's a doll...we're becoming closer....slooowly..lol

but do you know who i love the most?

guess

Ashley Marie Meeks!//

well i'm going to go!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 17:39:04 GMT

Hey there!//

well ummm i have had a pretty good break...//

~i've gotten to sleep in every day!

~i have ((number one thing)) gotten to eat a lot!

~i've been with all my friends and other people.....//

nothing too much has happened...last night all of us ((len,mo,ash,tor)) went to hickory falls to eat because tori's grandmother and aunt came in from arizona and we've never met them before..her grandma is only like 40 something and her aunt is 17 and she's really pretty..then they all went to wild horse i believe but i didn't really feel like going because i've been there many times...so0o its just nothing new right now..//but tonight...Kels and her mom are coming to get us and we're going to Coach De's and we're having our christmas party...it should be fun...all of us...lol we won't be in place in that big house....but o0o well we just might...brake a couple of things...but any ways...i have to go...bout to go to the TB...but love you....((i'll put pics on later))

<3 & m <3

//Lys....

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 17:50:16 GMT

Hey loves...

well i don't have much to say//but its been a very hectic/crazy week!//shopping...shopping...and more shopping!//but i can not belive its already Christmas Eve...and tomorrow is Christmas!!//yay..well i don't have much to say..but i hope you all have a very lovely Christmas...and BE SAFE!!//

<3 & m <3

christmas was wonderful...got what i wanted// straightener and loads of clothes!..other stuff too but any ways..i hope yall had a splendid day!// can't wait until New Year's....blair's and lol i get to stay the night...but NO ideas because there's going to be like 15 other people there too and so0o ok..nothing going through yalls little minds..cuz i know you would think that!// but i hope yall have a great rest of the break!!!!!!!!//

lol...ASH// why are we so0o0o0o0o0o0o00o0o0o weird right now./././././././././././././././././

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 20:45:11 GMT

Hey my lovers!!!!!

ok well first off life is just grand!!!// i mean there is so0o much that is going on and for some reason lately if something goes wrong its just ended up to NEW and BETTER things...//

i mean for real i am " too caught up" pshh i don't know what that's all about when i have other things on the line....//

Tonight is Cor's Christmas party so0o it'll be all us stuck up hoes...but its gonna be fun!// can not wait!//

so0o last night i went to cool springs with Lennie to get Jamie and Blair something// but i did not get blair one thing// but i helped len get her's all done so0o that was good// i love/hate boys./././. i love that you can look at them and have fun...but if you talk to them its a total turn off cuz boys are just plain idiots sometimes//and pretty sure Cool Springs had BEAUTIFUL boys there///ahh felt like heaven//

today is my mommy's bday! and we just went out together and i went tanning and got people gifts and now i am about to die my hair!!!/// my lord i am scared...but o0o well it'll be my first time just being one color..//

well i just want to say i love my friends and i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy i have them to be here for me...and i especially love ASHLEY MARIE MEEKS// and the " I LUHH LYS" gang down in Panama....and the "I BE LOVIN' ASH" gang in A town loves her very much....don't ask cuz i don't really know!!//

well i do not know when the next time i'll update because i'm going to be gone a lot i think i'm going down town with all the girls and tori's aunt sometime this week so0o it shall be fun!/// well Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!!!

<3 & m <3

Friday, December 16, 2005

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 23:53:14 GMT

Hey lovers///

well i'm not going to write a lot because i'm about to go eat with blair and his family//but i'll update when i get home...// these are words to a song that is on the sountrack of sisterhood of the traveling pants...me and tor watched it yesterday and yes we cryed....but we both really liked this song....//

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

dont you just HATE it when people can be that immature and petty like that??/// and i just want to say if you think i am stuck up i am really sorry...i'm really not i'm VERY shy and i'm not the person to go up and say hey to just some1 ((i've always been that way)) but all people like that want is attention/// and well they got their 15 minutes of fame// and i am sorry i am fat...lol i just can't help myself....what can i say i like to eat? and my hair...my god my hair!...........ugh what am i going to do with it????????// and i am a hoe thanks that's the best compliment i've heard all week...too bad my boyfriend called me a whore cuz i hugged my Parker...lol ((he was kidding)) and i am sorry that i am getting upset about this cuz thats all "samantha" wants but i'm sorry i know who i am...and hopefully you all can see that looks can be diseaving........but i love every1 very much!!!!!!!!!! and one of the best ways to look at this is....high school is 4 years...drama lasts for a week or two...people judge each other, but in the end life is not fair God never intended to make it that way...NO ONE is perfect...and all this crap will be gone by like maybe a day....cuz its really immature..and hopefully whoever the joker is can see that// and well ((Sorry i'm going on)) not all my friends may like me but i do know who cares and at least i have them..and i am greatful for that....Gosh at these moments i just wish i were closer to God cuz i really hate when people are so0o judgemental....... but that person is in my prayers!!!

well its saturday...and i am about to go get ready and go to my brother and sister-in-laws graduation at mtsu// it should be a little boring but o0o well.... ugh..so0o i am pretty much failing math...so0o i have to do this freaking thing on the computer to help me...but i don't know// i am very very excited because tuesday we're all going to coach de's emormous house for her christmas party...it shall be fun//then we might be going to cori's//but i'm a having a little get together with some people during the break and we're going to play dirty santa...and yes all the people that are coming are my stuck up friends that are all major hoes!!!!!!!!yes indeed we all are...yes yes// lol any who...i can't believe there's only 8 more days until christmas and ummm i only have one gift our of my family which means i have about 5 more to go// and blair's and friends and secret pal...and all that good stuff// well i hope every 1 has a great weekend see most of you monday last day of exams!

i guess itsme ((samantha))just couldn't handle what she got herself into//

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 21:38:10 GMT

loves//

soo first off...so0o very happy that this layout worked// not my favorite but o0o well// getting into the spirit// wishing that there was actually snow...Christmas doesn't feel the same without the snow// but i guess we're use to not having too much snow!//

Well my week was pretty good// not too many fights with my mom..// and not too many fights with blair// he was extra sweet this week...don't know why though//... I went to the varsity bball game at home and girls won// of course!//boys..i forgot.// thursday we had our 1st away game at Page High... never heard of that school before// but its some what near Franklin...// the bus ride was pretty fun but i didn't feel too well..lol// Girls won, as usual. the boys game was exciting it was close// but we won!// 1 cheerleader from the other school ((thinking their varsity)) was trying to show off doing tumbling but lol we showed them//(( i didn't of course))...but i will some day//

ummmm......one of my best friends is really upset with me over something i am not proud of// but i feel even worse about it because what she heard isn't my side of the story and it will make things way better if i could tell her,but i'm scared!// but i do have a guilty feeling so0o i know i have to talk to her no matter what!//

School// UGH! let me tell you i've never had so0o much math homework in my life!// we have to review for midterms so0o we get like the whole book!// absolutely loving the fact that i don't have to swim any more!// not that this past week we did anything// we actually got the chance to do what we wanted while all the boys and the girls who actually play the games and like it, be girly and actually get to keep our hair dry// so0o carley,julee,tori,tori,aly,and i just talked in the pool//

Tomorrow// i have to get up super early and go pick blair up at like 6:45 and go to Saudi Daisy..which is near Chattanooga and have a family reunion with the family i can't ever remember their names//lol but it should be fun because the house we're going to is in the mountains and suppose to be huge and pretty// but i'll be asleep all the way up there most likely//

so0o i'm going to put some icons and quotes and what not on here// ........

((stole this from cori//love you fatty))

Me and my love././././././.lol

edit Monday//

so// i'm really exhausted... i had to get up at about 530 yesterday and get ready then get blair then head to chattanooga// so0o i didn't get to see the pretty view that much because i was snoozing// i felt bad blair had no space and i was laying over him so he didn't have much room at all// but the house we went to was on the top of a mountain and it was gorgeous!!// the view and the house// so0o there was a "bottomless lake" there so0o my dad blair, and i go and check it out// and i've never felt so0o not trusted in my life!!// there was a ledge that over looks the lake and i went to look and blair yelled at me cuz he said i'd probably fall..and then we went down all these rock stairs to get closer and i was throwing rocks and blair made fun of the way i throw the whole time// ugh..iritating// then we went back and i saw the family i have no clue who they are ((never can remember))// then we left and once again i slept the whole time back// and umm we went to blair's for cell group// and that was fun! but i am so0o tired && i have to get up early again because 4 days after i get my contacts i lost one of them and i don't have my extras yet and i've gone all day half blind and i have to go get my glasses tomorrow early and do math!//

so0o...// my mystery friend who was mad at me ((well upset)) is no longer upset// and that lovely friend would have to be Mergy! but we're good!//

i've been thinking// and i really don't know if i feel the same as i did before about something//or if its a false alarm// but i do know there's something new and exciting that is really teasing me!// if that would be a good way to put it!// but i just don't know what to think, but o0o well it'll all come together!//

13 days until Christmas and i have only succeeded to get one gift out of maybe 7 more people//....but i am very excited and we only have 3 full days this week// and i am absolutely excited because thursday i am going to hang with my love...Tori!// so0o we're just gonna go pamper ourselves and hang out since we haven't in a long while and spend the night and go back to only a half day!//well i am going to go!! but i love you all!//

sorry// do not know what's going on with my layout//i'll fix it later!//

<3 & m <3

............Lys/./././././././......

AHHH i like my layout//

So0o it's tuesday// one more day until Hump day...you know i think it's so0o weird that they would call a day that//...well my day was pretty much amazing so0o...i decided to change my look since i could never do much with my hair in swimming// so0o i scrunched it and of course people said stuff to bother me // ok so0o its 2nd period and Coach Hardee just loves to give me a hard time so0o he asked me if i i was having a bad hair day and so0o i brushed it off and joked back then OF COURSE ethan hogan has to say something about me...lol so0o he goes no i'm kidding she looks good any way she looks then this chris guy was like dang ethan do you need to go to the b/r cuz you seem a little too happy now..so0o that was embarrassing//...i got my new glasses and i was scared they'd look bad because i decided to get something different than normal for me and all my friends seemed to like them..so0o i'm possibly wearing them tomorrow// ugh so0o i love ashley meeks// we've gotten closer again..tear tear me and all my friends are so0o far apart these days cuz we all have different things going on but we all are still close at the same time/./././. but i had a lot of drama in all areas of my life tonight and she helped me get through it!// ummm tomorrow we have our normal day go to gymnastics after school for the 130 class that we don't need then i get to hang with len and whoever else and eat!!//fun stuff!...then thursday half day get to take my gym and world history exam!...should be easy!//then i'm hanging with tori all day and possibly staying the night together// then i get to take my keyboarding and science exam...Monday's exam i absolutely dread MATH!...ahh so0o me and mo definately failed our test today because i got help from our teacher helper guy who's a senior and he taught me wrong!!// little iritating,, but o0o well!//well i don't have much else to say so0o leave me a lot of comments!//

<3 & m <3

have you ever not known what you wanted

confused about what to do

always questioning yourself

asking .. who can i turn too

the past keeps running through your mind

and you always wonder what you might find

looking for the person to be there

and you know they really care

but maybe looking isnt right

cuz ur heart always puts up a fight

so stop and think and forget about your past

theres a reason all those things didnt last

your heart may be torn ..broken... and shattered

but just remember in your heart you know what matters..

Friday, December 02, 2005

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 22:29:15 GMT

hey my loves/////

well i haven't updated in a while// well the usual has gone one//school,cheerleading,gymnastics,blair// everything is great with me and blair!// miracle lol....but let's say we weren't all this close this week// i was a bit witchy this week// to every one and i am sorry if i made you mad lol// well friends...// i have a lot in my mind that i can't even tell any one which stinks// but yeah i have told one person and she's the only one i can trust in this situation and will understand//...no one really knows about it so0o lol if your like lauren or tori or any of yall you won't know lol// but umMmMm gymnastics was pretty good...we got a new cd that tyler made us to tumble to and lol it has barbie girl and all these girly songs// so0o of course we were all dancing especially cori,as usual lol// then after gymnastics we did our tradition and went to eat and this week it was kelsey, mo,tor,len,and marcus and well Morgan and Tori were their normal selves like always// well ok this is to lauren danielle eddings...i just want you to know that you should do what you want about this situation and DO NOT care about what other girls say//lol just cuz he's beautiful doesn't mean anything!//lol this entry is a little random all around but o0o well!// well last night we had our first freshman bball games and congrats to all yall boys/girls cuz they won..!! but with us lol we weren't all that prepared for cheering// i've never cheered for bball so0o its a little different// but i do miss fball season very much!// we're going to have a good bball season though! ugggggggh i don't really have much to say now// but i'm bout to eat some chinese&& hang with my baby!// and hopefully hanging with my other baby and pookie and whoever else tomorrow! lovin the comments// keep them going!//

<3 & m <3

Lys/////////

edit December 6//

so0o how are all of you??// i'm pretty good!// so0o this week has been very nerve racking!// a lot of work in math plus project, but i took care of that with lauren morgan tori ashley kelsey macy and rachel yesterday!// so i am looking forward to the break!// midterms coming up!// should be fun...not really// umMmMm so0o i didn't have a good day sunday// my mother and i got into it// and i got grounded for a month!!!!//but lol i got out of that like an hour later!// BLAIR- umm we're ok// both very busy but lol awww i think he's gonna get me something good for christmas!!// excited! haha i wrote him this note in 2nd cuz i was mad at him that said 10 things i hated &&,10 things i like about him and all that good stuff lol...it was pretty mean// but lol he's clueless!// so0o lately i don't feel all that close to my friends, but thats partially my fault cuz i'm with blair 24/7// but we're all busy but i pretty much know one of my friends is mad at me and she won't say anything to me// but i can't talk to her about it, which stinks because i feel BAD!// but so0o i am going to go because i have to get ready! leave me some more comments yall are slacking!lol

<3 & m <3

don't worry you'll actually get to read this sooner or later// trying to get a new layout

Friday, November 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 00:08:10 GMT

Hey lovers!/././.

soooo....don't have much to say// but didn't spend today as thanksgiving// doing that tomorrow//and happy because blair's coming to spend it with me ((excited)) haven't seen him in a good 6 days! lol// well here's some icons/quotes/ ummm music// idk what's wrong with it.......thinking that lauren is right// i have no patience so0o i'm changing this xanga a wee bit! so0o....i think i love carley sanchez she's just amazing// and i love ashley marie meeks because well she's just so weird//but any ways i think i love her very much!..............................and i most d.e.f.i.n.a.t.e.l.y. love Quinton Blair Willis///